"Faith is taking the first step even when you don't see the whole staircase"

Martin Luther King, Jr.

Tuesday, January 13, 2015

Facebook Vacation

Dear Family, Friends & Acquaintances,

I've decided to take a Facebook vacation. I know those who love and care about me are just a phone call away. I prefer a more personal approach to communication through phone calls, text messages, emails and spending time together! You'll still be able to reach me and I hope to hear from you soon. The blog updates will continue as many find it helpful to keep updated on my fight with cancer.

Thank you for all of your love and support. I couldn't get through these difficult days without you!

Much Love, Kerry

Sunday, January 4, 2015

How's Mom?

I know you are all patiently waiting for Mom's health update. We truly appreciate it when people ask how she's doing! Someone asked me if she's going to be ok the other day; I responded that every day is a gift! No one knows what the next day will bring so we try to take it one day at a time. I know it's easier said than done for the one fighting each day! Mom really is amazing and she's doing a great job getting through her treatments!

She's completed 4 chemo treatments so far and it's been very challenging with a few unexpected bumps recently. Her chemo schedule is every-other week (on Wednesday) and she spends almost 8 hours in the infusion room hooked up through her port (upper chest) which is a direct line to the main artery. She's then sent home with a pump for the next 48 hours with additional take-home chemo to finish up. It's very hard for her 3-5 days following treatments. Mom's tired and pukey feeling, but she slowly regains energy and feels up to getting things done. Recently she had a blood clot in her arm so we had to give her blood thinning shots every 12 hours. This happened a few years ago so it's just like riding a bike but I felt bad for the patient receiving the shots more than I felt bad about giving them. She just finished those today! Yay Mom! Another bump has been with some difficulty swallowing and drinking so she had endoscopy done last Monday with light sedation and they were able to stretch her esophagus which should help. The doctor also took biopsy of the area that came back normal - super yay! Things look good down the hatch which really put Mom at ease. Now she just has to gear up for treatment to begin this coming Wednesday!

I keep reminding Mom how quickly she bounces back after chemo and that she's been down this road many times before. She's so strong and healthy despite all that she's been through. Even so mentally and emotionally strong that it's hard to tell when she needs help. It's a fine balance of assisting her yet keeping her motivated and encouraging her to get up and do things on her own also. When she is up it's hard to stop her!

Please continue to keep her in your heart, thoughts and prayers for strength and comfort! Thank you so much!

December to Remember

There's a sad pain in my heart as I say goodbye to my family today, especially felt with my parents.  As a child I've been fortunate to personally witness my parents unconditional love, sacrifices, and deep concern for my life and my siblings.  I know that our parents would do anything for us within their means.  Life is difficult; as circumstances change it molds and shapes us.  Now we worry about our parents, make sacrifices and become saddened when life's difficulties weigh on them.  Their health, financial well being and happiness become part of our concern.  As a loving daughter it's only natural to feel this way without seeming codependent.  

Mom's cancer is truly the icing on the cake regrading challenges for her personally and for all that love her.  Our lives have forever changed over the past 6 years.  I still have a hard time accepting that it's true and that her pain and suffering are actually happening.  I spend every November and December in deep thought over the subject.  It was November 2008 when she was diagnosed and December 2008 when her father (our Boppie) passed away.  I spent the whole month worried we would loose our Mom too.  It was the worst pain and fear I've ever experienced.  

I know that we are all so grateful for each day that Mom continues her flight and each moment we're able to share with her is cherished.  I know that we've become stronger people and learned to focus on the more important things in life.  We've become positive and brave yet realistic about the hardships each day.  I can truly say that I have the very BEST family and I'm so proud to be a part of their lives.  I know we will KERRY ON in 2015 keeping positive and helping Mom through her fight one day at a time.  Please remember to show appreciation for all that you have.  Be grateful for each day and reach out to show love and compassion as much as possible.  Everyone is fighting a battle and everyone needs love!